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EDELYN

First and foremost.......

Merry Kristmus to all your people out there! How was your xmas eve ??

Mine was simple and perfect surrounded myself with people who treats one another genuinely

love my boyfriend more for spending money on all the presents food and cleaning up

I really couldn't ask for more

I'm going to bed now... It's past my bedtime

You know its not over when its still haunting you. when yesterday's argument is brought forward today, tomorrow, day after so on and so forth.

I don't get it why must things be said out this way.

Does it make you lose one slice of your meat but just accounting? Does it make you lose your limp to just tell? it may not seem significant to you but if it is for me i don't see why can't u just say? And work is always a great excuse to forget telling

Instead of being so called QUARREL AVOIDANT!, You can just say when asked for without asking to make life easier. If one is really QUARREL AVOIDANT don't they know that by saying I DON'T SEE THE NEED TO SAY or I HATE BEING DOUBT/ACCUSED. which argument will end up worse?

If u want me to trust on the 2 facts, 1 . no track record (no trackable record) 2. hates being doubted or accused. im sorry that cannot be done. even if its swore upon your own life fathers mothers and whoevers

I trust only what i see and what is not accounted for / so called dont see the need to.


Whose fault is it actually? when one wants to give the other everything they want and when that person doesn't actually care if its given or not ? Doesn't make her/him love you any more or less no??

So when you feel like u're doing your so called THE BEST and u feel like the other party isn't as so called *APPRECIATIVE* whose fault?

If the answer is none? then why is there that argument? what are we trying to prove?

What does it take for one to be just EASY GOING instead of forever harping on some bullshit called PRINCIPLE!

I would much rather pick knowing when/what to do or not to talk at the right time over having alot of telepathy with the one i love over the most nitty gritty stuff .

Instead of forever thinking of the worst case scenerio try thinking of the glass as half full.

After yesterday's explosive i would have to say i have never felt such peace with myself for awhile because now im slightly calmed down and i know clearly what i want and do not want.

I want not stupid stress given onto yourself whether or not IM HUNGRY even kids know how to find food when they are hungry and it has nothing to do with eating with the family without you around.

If you are going to constantly give yourself stress over every single thing that shoots out of my mouth at any given time without even have knowing the slightly difference between right and wrong, need or wants, possible or impossible, for the stars moon and planets.

That will only cause unnecessary arguments, and most importantly my tears

Its not suspecting , its just doing a random check if all is accounted for , one has no need to fear for arguments. even if there are questions it is to clear any miscommunication inbetween to avoid misunderstanding and ACCUSATIONS!

Im done saying and i've never been so logical in any relationship but with this i had to tuck my heart inbetween and let my brain do its work

Come 2010. Blow Me Away Shall Cease To Exist

Come 1st January 2010 A bigger , better , bolder blog will Reveal

One that is going to make me some MOOLAH!

Stay Tuned

xoxo

edelyn

So yes boyfriend has officially handed his bimmer over to the dealer. Yesterday

Feels so sad 11 months of fun and thrill and trips up kuala lumpur!!

I was suppose to console boyfriend but instead he consoled me in the end!!

It's okay come the new year he'll get the Porsche boxster niceeeee

was thinking of 6 series or 3 series cabriolet !!

For the rest of this year we'd shuffle between vios and kangoo??

Niceeeeeeeeee

there is 2 kinds of arguments i hate out of the many that i do.

1. passing the phone to somebody else. that dont work with me whatever the other person has to say i totally didnt listen. i hate how ppl say don't believe ask ***** den shove phone . i think its basic respect not to drag others into an argument .

Poor fellow who gets involved will 20% of the time get put on my not want to have anything to do with list. well there is still 80% chances that they don't because i dont think its their fault.



2. i hate the believe it or not up to you. when people say that 90% of the time i wont believe it.


don't explain wont know. this statement doesnt include work related, life relates, moment related stuff. because it doesnt involve me i dont care. i only care about ppl explaining things i want to know and i care about.


whatever im just ranting and basically i cannot even remember what i wrote this for.

goodnight

Somewhere i can run to and rant without obligations without caring about the feelings of people around me

That makes me sane.

seeing some blogs, people, profile, pictures makes me want to gag.

its like my body is automatically rejecting them! It comes so naturally.

Attempting to blog with my phone right now!! I remember having something to say but I totally forgotten about it!!!

Loving my iPhone but I want a bb too!!

Boyfriend thinks I have wants and not needs! I already have everything I need!!! So it's only left with wants right??

I want a wii
I want a m6
I want another camera
I want to go to disneyland again
I want to go on cruise

I was pretty sure I had more wants but I cannot remember now

crap! I hate how my posts make me seem more materealistic and childish than I actually am !! But I can't be arsed to phrase it in another way

it is fucking 3.48am and we are going to exercise at 8am!!!!

Tried blogging with my iphone but the fucking keyboard refuse to appear FML!.

Went blading with baby together with MH and XX .

Thanks to MH i fell down!! scrapped my damn knee

SEE this is why edelyn dont do sports! i swear my brother's got 99% of the sport genes !

Im abandoning Viceroy Menthol lights officially for Ice Blast. Bf and i have been going around singapore finding me Ice blast, because apparently every 7 eleven was only given 2 cartons? smlj

Anyhow i don't take pictures so u'd probably find the pictures on my facebook.

I cant be damned to blog seriously find me on twitter

www.twitter.com/edelynnn

Had fun at the Regal's Yesterday After Eskibar which is so darn cold. It was Ming hao and Xuexin's 7th year anniversary (omfgwtfbbq) How does anybody do that?!?!

7 YEARS! and still going so muthafucking strong and so muthafucking sweet, It felt as if it was still their honeymoon period!

Had fun singing till my throat went hoarse, Played pool which i suck so badly i keep making the boyfriend put the balls back in place so that i can hit it till i score. Its not the least bit fun playing with someone who clears the fucking table not to mention had earned medals doing so ... fml

Earlier that day after boyfriend finished his work he picked me up and we headed to Wisma so i could get my eye cream, fuck im looking haggard! what happened to those days where i didn't need any skin care products.

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You see that is life, Someone who is not suited for you may be the best boyfriend to someone else and vice versa. There is not such thing as a horrible boyfriend/girlfriend.




xoxo

edelyn

Hello earthlings.

2009 is about to end I really enjoyed 2009 thoroughly Wishing for Christmas to arrive soon but dreading the New year to come.

In 2009 I traveled an equivalent amount in a year : 20 years of my life.









Ok my brain just died for 10 minutes....


ok whatever i was trying to say i love my life now.

I need to take more pictures but again i would rather abandon this blog then to waste time taking pictures before i eat -_-"

I should just sell my SLR hmmm??

I have absolutely no inspirations to blog!

I eat sleep watch tv almost everyday!!

Nothing much to blog about my dating life, because practically we live together!

Baby said 10 months felt like 4 years and i totally agree!

I am sometimes envious of couples who don't see each other everyday, going on dates where after which going to either house for a sleep over is MAD LOVING!

But still i'm not giving up my kind of relationship for those!!

On the 2nd of November was our 10th month headed down to marina barrage for some heart to heart in the wee hours.

After which we spent the day watching a movie

Got our first set couple ring

which we wear to bed every night !!



Mad love, boyfriend is still snoozing beside me!! omfg i swear i hate waking him up

When i was growing up i dreamt of the perfect wedding, the perfect guy, the perfect kids, the perfect marriage

I lost that somewhere along the way.

Not too long ago, i found it all back.

Now i've never been happier, I can talk about naming my kids, where we would stay, how the wedding would be like, what kind of wife i will be

I like being with a guy who can give me a future, who wants a future with me.

I no longer want a relationship that goes day by day.

Connie coming back taught me alot. I fell in love with babies, Everyday spent with sabrina taught me alot about babies. I want to be there every step of the way seeing R'selcia grow up. I want her to call me godma!

I take back those words i've ever said about not wanting kids.

Boyfriend is home! finally.

My nights are no longer quiet!!

No more nightmares!!


Anyhow i met an indian pervert at penisular plaza! bloody fucker i thought he was just being friendly but he got TOO friendly when he lean in for a kiss at the 7-eleven door! ASSHOLE i told him i had a bf.. thank god bf came down after but we couldn't find that fellow anymore! crap

Tramatized!

Life is like that.

Went one big round only to find out the person meant to be with u was the one before me =)

Im happy for you. Hope i didn't waste 2 years of your life for nothing =D

be happy =)

Boyfriend isn't here to apply moisturizer on my feet!
I felt clumsy doing it myself and its so uneven!

GAWD!

Its not easy.

Im not sad, i guess im just all choked up? I know one day this would come but we would never know till it happens right?

Anyway ...


I cannot bring myself to continue this post..


I really can't

Not so young anymore

Time of the month is approaching, Been gorging myself crazy.

Living in china for 8 days makes me
- frugal
- cute. wtf
- appreciative

CONS

People there spit anywhere and everywhere and i constantly had to dodge because obviously they didn't notice me behind!

The air is so polluted i got myself 3 pimples and a black lung. fml. even viceroy can't cause such an effect!?!?!

PROS

Get to smoke anywhere, everywhere.

Bought 2 huge ass hard covered luggages for 20 sing each.

People there seem to think i look very cute and young ! which is not the same case as in singapore. Im usually old and fat here! fml

WHY!

How come in only 21 but living/ bearing life like a 24 - 29 should?

21 year olds are still studying, clubbing, hot, doing kiddish , childish things.

im 21 and travelling with the boyfriend, learning alot about business, shopping lesser, wearing more mature clothings, looking older. worrying about paying bills, getting offices, meeting leaders= talking to aunties and uncles the age of 45 - 60.

Whatever happened to the thrill of being young? wondering if the money you have left is enough for food/movies/entryfees/branded stuff ?

What happened to counting by the 10s 50s and 100s it became 1000s 10 000s 100 000s 1 mils

1k - 2k for holiday = passable

50 dollars to catch a toy = WTF CB WHY SO EXPENSIVE CHUI!

23 dollar for a movie = NB WHY SO EXPENSIVE ONE BUY DVD LA!

100+ for health care each time = Okay la not very ex what

100 for beauty products = not bad not bad

10k for office = ok what


When i feel old inside , its impossible to stay youthful on the outside!





soooo



i dyed my hair red.






FROM THIS



TO THIS



I started acting cute since i got my hair dyed and sooo far it got me anything i want =D

Hello people Im flying off in less than 10 hours! im pretty excited but the excitement has died down 5 minutes ago because i am bored.

I cannot fall asleep, There is no tivo programs that i wanna watch, no ones online.

WTF!

I need to blog.. friends are complaining about the short posts . well in my defense its not short, short is what i tweet!

Life without the boyfriend is pretty carefree but don't be mistaken i miss him loads

I drive the car everywhere, Run errands, meet friends .

Boyfriend is really working very hard . So hard i find myself feeling guilty when i get angry at him.. even when he's wrong......

Crap

I don't remember posting these pics But it was of our first month anniversary which was 8 mths ago

We had slight argument that night because of a white lie he told.. because he wanted to get me my present



This is me feeling very bad after receiving it



WELL STILL NO LYING!... even if its lying to plan a surprise =(


Apparently theres an earthquake today from indonesia my brother said he felt it and he was the first to run away. chui

I don't feel anything?? i live at pasir ris and his office is at tampines!

I remember feeling earthquake twice at david's house i thought i was fainting from the crying

Okay its my cousin nicky's birthday tomorrow but his party is today! HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOY! see u at your party later if i can wake up!

NO WONDER I AM PUTTING ON WEIGHT.. i sleep eat go out sleep eat go out....

So boyfriend is already in SZ =(... I miss him and im gonna distract myself but filling my week with programmes.

As usual as soon as he leaves i have to clear the bills! boyfriend take years to pay the bills! the bank must be very happy to have him as a customer always earning from the interest

So today will belong to gal and stella! i was hoping to go shopping with them later on.

Searching for a black bag. Im fucking picky with my bags... Was thinking of longchamp or agnes B first. But we shall see again! Don't think i wanna pay for so much for a bag. Im thinking of a bag to thrash !

October! WHY! can't we skip this mth? So many birthdays

Nicholas, Shalyn, yvonne, Steven, michelle. i heard my wallet crying

Hello. Boyfriend is being really nice. He went to popular to get few stacks of black paper to cover up all his window . why? because i cannot sleep with the slightest bit of sunlight and to top it off i sleep in the morning!

Twitted the pic of bf in his sexy boxers standing on the ledge ! mwahahahha its pretty scary after all his room is on the 2nd floor and the house has fucking high ceiling -_-"!

WOOHOO! major love.

Anyway we're heading out after this to get ingredients for making aglio olio! yum before heading to neverland which is a thai disco? at orchard plaza ! LOL pretty nice place. the thai girls gave me lollipops!

OK GTG BYE

I feel so superficial today. How can anyone seriously be so happy to receive a toy? as excited as receiving a diamond ring...

WTF! okay going to marcus tang's 21st with lala. Gonna meet old classmates there MAD LOVING IT

I slept at 6pm woke up at 12am and now im wide awake. Truth is , its this time of the night/day that makes me think. Even when arguing my mind works best at this time. fml

I need something. Im contemplating on a business, studying , get a part time job.

You see Mj pays for everything. Im pretty relax. But its a sense of satisfaction when i get my close one a present i earn with my money? Stella's and Gal's bday is nearing Im thinking of getting a job to get their presents.

A2 and i are pretty set on starting our own business in 2 years. But first we have alot of things to tackle. for instance, Our capital, Our concept solving problems before they arise and all those crap.

BLAH!

digressing

Thats me in my new hair which btw is fucking short considering my previous hair touches my asscrack
Totally straight with no layers.



Ok brain just died BYE

Bf is getting here at 9.30 and we're going to JB! we go overseas so much my new passport since feb is already reaching HALF of the book soon!

I hope no one steals the BMW logo at the back of his car this time... AHHAHA

whatever pathetic as it sounds. I don't feel like talking to anyone

I can no longer open my mouth and share my problems with anyone because i don't think there really is an actual problem?

Its just i feel Both is never good enough . I no longer feel like talking or solving problem neither do i want to hear anyone talk talk talk and trying so hard to make me understand. I don't want to understand, i don't wanna know, and i don't want to be someone that im trying so hard to be. at the expense of me.

I think its pretty hard to love me for me, everything about me, my temper, how my mood changes from hour to hour, how drama i can get. I was like that. I found myself for awhile and i lost it all to love. Im happy to a certain extend because im living the chill out life that i want, and that my dears come with a price. A price that cannot be named or measure a price that sucks your soul out by the minute..

When i walked away from the car. I felt a pain a sharp sharp pain. telling me i don't wanna hear another argument anymore. i don't wanna be mild anymore. i don't wanna hear where ive done wrong or what i've not done enough. I just want to be me. I just want to do things on my own time. I just wanna make decisions without worrying about anyone. I want to cry when i want, shout when i want.

Ive never felt more like dying than now. I never felt more like just sleeping and never wake up to face anyone anymore. I just want to smile and be me from the moment i wake up till the moment i slept.


Its no longer a problem we can solve. The only solution is to let each other be who we want to be and just fucking accept it. accept that she is like that and if u want to live with her be with her. u just hafta accept that.

I have to accept so many things . I live a life i've never lived before. But how come its so different from my fantasy? How comes its no bed of roses? I didn't know it came with such a price. AND i was ... very willing to accept and to go nahh he is like that one just let him be, when hes angry just go ahhh thats him one la. But how come i don't feel like i can be me. Issit my fault?

How come after all i've done i've given in all that im willing to do. I still feel like i didn't try hard enough. why do i feel like i only got a 50 when i gave in 100

I just want to be out of your shadow out of your wings i just want to be alone, be me.

I still scared of talking, still scared of getting voice raised at, or even shouted at. Im still afraid of always being wrong, always felt like ive not done enough, always felt like im not understanding enough. what more do i have to give before i completely lost me totally.

I don't want and im so scared right now... so scared of u walking thru my door . so scared of u coming near me just so scared of u...

DO u know there is nothing i wouldn't give to let someone tell u the way i was and how fucking lucky u actually really are right now..

Its no longer the much about the quantity of time more like quality

What is my actual favourite color.
What is my IC number
What is my passport number
What is the expiry date of it
What went wrong when the sound of speech changed?
What am i really like?
What is my favourite dish
What drinks do i take when im bleeding
What can i not eat

Alot more. Its not impossible whatever after impossible is just an excuse for u're not doing good enough.

Knowing, caring, understanding, loving them is no longer just about thinking of them all the time, always saying i love u, rushing home straight after work, doing work in the room.

Its knowing what makes them tick
Its caring yet not disturbed when their mood sucks
Its about knowing what to do when to do

Not everything can be said flat, Love doesnt come in a manual where u can find under sections when things go wrong, its about learning because u want to and not because u have to. I can never tell why or where u've done wrong or not done enough. i cannot...

Well i am not happy.

If you are thinking who cares? Please click the X on the right hand corner and fuck off

If you're some exs' gf who come here to seek some joy out of my misery just because your relationship suck which btw is none on my business, Please too click the X on the right hand corner and go do something useful like BLOWING YOUR BF!

Sorry for digressing.

Well you see, Im the kind of person you'd wanna be hanging with if you're in a good mood wanting to have some fun.

I can come off pretty bimbotic ! You see blondes have the most fun, because when u act stupid u don't really care what others think , why? because u know that not who u really are inside.

Those people who insult you just because you act like a dumb blonde, or because u aint demure and because u hurl vulgarities can fuck off because they aren't worth it

Im not the demure kind of girl, every sentence i say would probably end with a WTF CCB or start with one, or both . And i definitely do not sugar coat my words when i think u deserve it.

I don't have to be who u want me to be if u don't like me the way i am don't hang around me..

My friends love me the way i am. They know who i really am inside, That i am actually capable of things beyond what your pea brain can register!

I talk the way i want to, I curse if i fucking want to, I can be sarcastic when i want to.

Sometimes in life you do not need certain people and their crap! =)

The next person who wants to complain about their miserable life yet dare tell me NO when im suggesting something will get it from me big time. I PROMISE

AND I WILL NOT SPARE YOUR PAST ANCESTORS OR FUTURE ONES WHEN I CURSE

I have something to confess...

i...



I....


I have a secret crush.....


Im sorry bf...


But he's toooo cute


he's none other than..


WILBER PAN WEI BO







AINT HE JUST GORGEOUS?? omfg.... im drooling already..

I was crazy over him since i was like what? secondary 1? It stopped for awhile but then whenever i read about him or heard him singing

it makes me go gaga ALL OVER AGAIN!

OMFG

I just took out my hair extensions A PLASTIC BAG FULL OF IT!..

After i was done plucking them out i went to wash my head and OMFG the amount of hair i saw. I THOUGHT I WAS GOING BALD. FUCK FUCK FUCK.. CHUI CHUI CHU..

I am trying to tell myself ITS OK.. HAIR WILL GROW BACK. and that its so much lighter now..


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WHO THE FUCK AM I KIDDING!

WHY WHY ON EARTH DID MY ITCHY FINGER PLUCK OFF THE FIRST EXTENSION!


Boyfriend is out entertaining his business partner and im stuck at home. poor me.

Im contemplating on changing my blog layout but im clueless..

OKAY FINE PEOPLE HAVEN U REALIZE BY NOW IM JUST BLABBERING AND U CAN JUST CLICK THE X BUTTON ON TOP!

kkthxbye


ps im so cute

Retribution & karma comes back so fast, you won't even know when.

And when it does. It would be worse than what you've done.

Just when you think " don't bring past RS problems into this" you realize that there is Much more problems you have to face.

U know how married couples can stay together everyday for many years? I WONDER HOW THE FUCK THEY DO THAT!.

Nowadays when the tensions gets a lil high with the boyfriend i feel like running home! just run home where i won't have to worry about anything else.

is it about HAVING to accept like bo bian or because after years u actually believe the love is still around??

How do couples tahan when one or another gets the TIME of the month where someone gets the damn period or stress from work brought home??

I believe if the tension is starting to build its better off to live apart for awhile? If no u'd seriously start to wonder if u still love that person. Have they become a menace? a hindrance? AND yes they may do things out of goodwill but? will u let them off before u tell them off?

Do you know there is a big difference between maybe and urmm i guess so?

Do u wanna marry him? maybe
Do u wanna marry him? urmm i guess so?

Do u think he might be the one? Maybe
Do u think he might be the one? urmmm i guess so?

OR WORSE STILL it went from a maybe to just a smile with no replies

FML!

The above questions are just examples and are not proves that i wanna marry or think hes the one. duh

Friends.

As people grow up, they realize it becomes less important to have more friends. But more important to have real ones.!.!

I actually starting growing up in secondary school started to have more friends. I use to have an obscene amount of female friends but it gets lesser when you realize females bitch about u. !.

I failed to see when i was younger, friends who are straightforward instead of sweet coating the words and backstab you real bad behind.

I failed to understand why friends would tell me straight in the face about things that aint right, it feels like they're hurting me.

I failed to understand how when its clearly they're saying to help you not bitch slap you, you take it otherwise.

I find myself a failure at times when it took me 21 Minus 16 years to learn who stays.

Today i can sit down and having mature and childish conversations with connie. Because we are so different yet complements in a way.!.

Today i can sit down with Gal (sabrina) with stella and having no ulterior motives or thinking on whether or not they are snatching your friends! We are not sensitive on the monetary issues. We opened our hearts to let them walk in knowing they will never hurt you!.

Heck im even friend's with my friend's sister who btw is younger and has the same bday with me! i think shes the youngest person i hang out with!

I have misunderstood these people before. hearing about how they stab me from behind or saying things about me that hurts me bad Only to hear from the horses mouth the real actual fact with no sugar coated on it.! If they don't like anything about me they tell me tactfully yet not honeyed. If we have any disagreement we never fail to say NO! and we talked nicely compromise instead of forever giving in!. We have different stands at time but we will always respect that , that is just who they are and who i am!

Im really happy that after so many years. I actually have more than 1 female friend i can actually open my heart to.!.

Seeing people close to me becoming mothers , maturing, growing up in every aspect of their lifes. Makes me really happy .


True friendship isn't about being inseperable its being seperated and knowing nothings changed

Of cos besides the fact we no longer the childish kids with horrid mentality back in high school!

/editted

I am living a good life. I sleep at 8 - 9 am and i wake up 12 hours later.

Boyfriend is finally coming home tml! cannot wait.. After which we're going up to KL! cannot wait...

Its 6.11 am and im still awake.. blogging..

Headed to west plaza earlier on with ezekiel to slack for a little while, the point was to get my hoons =X anyhow our blocks are separated by A primary school which is irritating because it makes the distance further have to walk so far to meet him *grumbles*

Came home watched iron man with my daddy while SB runs around not sleeping.. Didn't want to entertain him sooo. i put him in my room on his throne to sleep! bugger won't sleep with people around.

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In 2 days time Mj and i will be hitting our 8th month anniversary. Wow. im pretty impressed considering the fact that before him i only had an ex bf who went 2 years with me. the rest are counted in days hours and short of a month. -_-" fml

With Mj i can be myself. I am more than happy to let him make all major decisions .. well of cause he asks me first *behind closed doors*

I never had anything to worry about except for his safety and the ridiculous amount of bills piling up every month..... wtf he has his ways of clearing them all!.

This guy told me at the poorest moment in his life since working , MJ: ' hey baby im sorry that you have to suffer with me and id make it up to u " . AND my dear when he thought he was poorest, i was at the point in my life where i never had to worry about a single cent, i could still eat alot better than i use to, shop more than i use to, or fly to countries i would probably never get a chance to if it wasn't for him. This to me is a guy who is sooo hardworking that he cannot stand being second best. he would do all he can, work as hard as he could to give a way better life.

Having to work more than 12 hours a day entertaining people , facing rejections . he still makes an effort to come home to me everyday smiling and asking me about my day(thou sometimes he fail in that sense) ,worrying whether or not i've eaten, making sure i don't feel any stress, making sure i take my vitamins and even sleeping with me when he clearly has a shit load of work undone.

Yes like any normal couple we have our arguments and days where we feel like u're not doing good enough, or like picking on stuffs that we can't even remember why we started fighting for.!
Sometimes i get so used to the way hes so nice that sometimes i neglected the fact that some days he just wants to not please any body.

With this guy, i feel like myself, i can be who i want to be, i get to be small , out of the spotlight comfortably lying in his arms

Yes he's not perfect he has things where i hate or would love to change, but im trying learning to accept everything. i don't have to love it but i can just accept.

I should learn to never take things for granted. =)

Ok imma call his now!

FUCK MY LIFE..

I am officially sick again! similanjiao!?!?!?!

Top it off with a cherry on top, Boyfriend is in Shenzhen again... fml

Before leaving still left me a pile of shit to settle! pay tax, pay fines, pay credit card bills. Sick still have to run out deposit money go to AXS and pay...

Uploading My hk pics onto facebook.. I KNOW im slow.. but fb is always so cranky!

okay i stoned for 5 mins......

i have no life bye

;Everyone's going to SOCIAL , when are YOU??

Social house this saturday for VIP close door event.. IM seriously getting excited and is si be happy that i have cousin beside me that night!!!!!

Dressed to the best .... I HAVEN EVEN THOUGHT OF WHAT TO WEAR!!! smlj

The next person who tell me that "during an argument to stop fighting give each other a hug" I will tell that fellow to go fly kite.

1. After hugging doesnt assure that the next argument won't drag in the previous days arguments

2. After hugging doesn't mean that they'll change.

3. After hugging does make their impression of you get any better

4. After hugging doesn't change the facts that what you say is out to hurt

5. After hugging doesn't change the fact that you've shouted ridiculously loud at them.

6. After hugging only solves that darn problem for awhile.

After every relationship i learn to be rational and realistic about the next relationship but it goes down the drain after awhile.

Sometimes not caring and i mean SOMETIMES not caring will not make you so angry !

Why haven't i learn from the past relationship that no matter how much you change your changes will be overlooked for something you've not change.

I use to shiver in fear about someone shout at me. Now after being shouted at so many times. im getting used to it.

Do you know why its always my fault? because i do things with no reason. i go with my heart.
Even if i regret what i say or do after ..

;Idonothaveatitleformypost

I have many clothes. I have a big ass cupboard with shelves and drawers at the boyfriends, I have A big one in my house with drawers and shelves + 2 standing ones *those made of wood with many compartments*

BUT

i have nothing to wear.


I have a big carton box full of shoes Minus the shoe boxes still makes up about 30 pairs . still sitting in the storeroom while i wear only the other 8 in which 6 is in the boyfriend's car.

BUT

i feel like i don't have enough shoes.

I have a ton of clothes and shoes i know i would never wear again BUT i still refuse to throw because its SI BE CHIO or SI BE EXPENSIVE.

On the other hand. I have so little bags that i can count with 2 hands -_-"

Okay whatever said above isn't the main point. THE point is i have found no interest in shopping in singapore anymore..

Whatever singapore has is brought from overseas and they sell way cheaper there.

And while shopping in Shenzhen recently. I found soooo many clothing which are actually way better looking than in topshop / forever 21 so on and forth. And i seriously cannot give 2 fuck about the material cause I DON'T WEAR THEM FOR LONG!!! But some of them their materials are actually good.. I saw soo many tops that can be found at far east for 40 to 50 Dollars but only selling at 8 dollars in SZ..

So now onwards im getting 80% of my new clothes from SZ .

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; Make up

I have a problem with people who have no idea how to apply make up properly.

I think stella has a bigger problem with it you should hear the things we say...

tsk tsk why are we such bitches bff??

Make up if a gift if you use it properly. And the brushes are tools to make it better..

EYE BROWS.

Should not be thinner on the inside and thicker on the outside



It shouldnt be a curve that is NEITHER HERE NOR THERE.

Neither should it be so thin and HIGH



Because if you shape it so thin .. This is what you will look like in the morning



What is a proportionate eye brow?



The length cannot be too short. The arch is suppose to start from the outer of the eye ball .

Do you know your eye brows are as important as your hairstyle? It makes and break a person. If you have your make up done perfectly but your hair is like grass you still look like shit.

If after reading and you feel so indignant and want to pick on me telling me who am i and what right i have to say all these.. i will slap you in the face with my Diploma certification In make up.(im such a bitch really)

But i have to say If you're born with shitty eye brows there are many ways out there to get a perfect one. don't spend your money just on clothes..

Pictures above are all given to me by friends who have been complaining about ugly brows . I have no idea who these above people are.

PLEASE DON'T GET ME STARTED ON FAUX LASHES..

Greetings Earthlings.

I am still not asleep at such an unearth hour.
Boyfriend is happily snoring beside me now!!! pffft

Went prawning with XX and MH just now. In case you have no either they're MJ's twin brother and his gf. AND if you have no idea who MJ is... you can just click the X button on the top right corner. ... seriously

On the way to changi village Baby and i were reciting the pledge and singing it out loud.
Turn to xx and say: Pardon my boyfriend he's just so happy right now celebrating.
xx: ??
me: you see today would have been 7 years. LAUGHS OUT REALLY LOUD
xx: *gave me a priceless expression*


Digressing a little. we caught 28 prawns in 2 and a half hour. Pretty smug.


Im not a patriotic person. But heck happy birthday singapore.

Bf and i are just gonna stay home cook up a storm before catching fireworks if possible.

In 1 week im gonna be having my period.
i feel hormones kicking in.

Have been on my toes for a while now, bf is in an easily aggravated mood.

When i see him so angry and stuff it makes me feel sian and feel like shit.

i feel like i cannot say anything.

idk.... idk how im suppose to act behave or feel anymore.

Hey ladies. Visit www.fashionholict.com For its latest R'selcia collection!!! =)

Shenzhen

Sz was fun but i can't be arsed to take pictures. Bf on the other hand has shit loads of pictures (*mumbles to myself : "gay"*)

Xx and i were busy shopping conquering all the stores in dongmen. Even till the last day we can't even conquer half of it. Bargained till it was almost 1/4 the price. Smoking anywhere everywhere throwing cig butts ANYWHERE.

The food was fucking-fanta-licious.

Here is a bowl of beef noodles. i put in so much chilli they think im mad.
AND YUP i finished the whole damn bowl myself



Dim Sum at this extremely grand place.

That my dear is their CHEE CHEONG FUN.. you can feed a family in africa with that size.


And their Har gao is the size of my fucking fist..
But their Xiao Long bao is really... xiao


Danny brought us for this amazing dinner at Xiang Mi Hu the lamb rack was the size of my feet -_-"

We had dinner The day before we left at this place called.


Yes you didn't read wrongly. Its called wa wa jiao.. i laugh in my head everytime i say it out. wtf

Their serving is equivalent to one BIG ASS FRYING PAN! and we had 2 of those PANS on our table. one in which i swear that theres at least 100 prawns -_-" and the other idk 30 frogs? wtf

Right now im typing with my fuckin beautiful acrylic nails which only cost me 60 Sing dollars. full 3D with Blings. ME LOVE

As you can see im blogging just for the sake of blogging. i would rather stare into empty space than blog.



Anyhuuu Bf is getting a place in SZ and id probably be up there half of the year .. WHY CAN't HE PICK JAPAN OR LOS ANGELAS TO DO BUSINESS HUH?!?!?!? *grumbles to self*

Im flying off in less than 12 hours..

and my luggage is half packed. No idea what im wearing on board.. Haven't gotten my hoons.

Bf said this before: * no standard and substandard id rather pick no standard if not its just half fucked.*

IM HALF FUCKED. ahahahha.

Ive been meeting sabrina and stella so much i think im gonna miss them. THIS IS BAD.. very bad.

So yes im gonna get them nice stuff !

I have a ridiculously busy day ahead. And a whole lot of work to do before leaving singapore on the 24th! looking forward to my short getaway.!

In a few hours Id be heading out with stella and sabrina(gal not apple) to get some stocks .

Stella is starting work on the 23rd and im flying on the 24th. which means we need to get the pictures taken and stocks settled before 23rd!!

I read that there is gonna be a solar eclipse today or something. Read more on Yahoo news. Good time to pray, gonna get my girls there too..

Look out for an advertorial coming up soon!! i just need time to sort them out

Harry potter with A2

I actually booked the tickets at the wrong place! we wanted DTE and i booked cineleisure instead. Heck i blame amy and amelia cause i was on a 3 way call with them.



I rate it a 2.5 over 5 popcorns. I hated it because dumbledore died. WHYYYYY! I AM NOT HAPPY

Before the show started we took neo prints and amelia has them. will scan them when Mj gets back .

Amelia drove. She is clueless about getting to cineleisure and she almost killed us on the way back. She actually turned into the oncoming traffic lane!?!?!?!? can't blame her it was 4 am and she was dead tired too i guess...

My wireless is so slow im stealing someone else's wireless and its way faster.


5 days more to SZ

Virgin

HDB branch office at 8 am in the morning
Stayed up all night as Boyfriend is flying to china tonight
We got our first season parking



Bought this top from topshop.
Ok for stella it would be a top for me a dress i know i know.. short



Original price 76 or something. After using The everyday card i had a idk 10-15% off
I bought it 2 weeks ago and only wore it the day before yesterday



I love my bedsheets. I have this thing for crazily cute yet not to the disgusting extend bedsheets.

So yes its 8.15 pm Baby should be on the plane right now to Shenzhen. He's flying me up on the 24th which means 10 days from now..

I need to have plans to keep myself busy from going crazy without him around.


MEET

R'selcia koh lexuan. I think.. AHAHHA

I've never carried a baby this small before and MY GOD IS SHE HEAVY! but so amazing !



Why is everyone around me (my age group) getting married / having kids and all!?!?!

I am sooo not ready to be known as MRS or getting compliments like YOUR BABY IS SO CUTE.

Stella don't abandon me!!! You cannot run off and get married anytime soon ok. MWAHAHAHHA

KKTHXBYE gonna sleep. Doing my nails and shopping with stella tomorrow.

1 week intensive training for the small dog, before mum makes noise and wants to have him sent back again!?!

Had dinner/supper with david and stella a few days back. so nice to catch up with them =)

Its been awhile since i had to put on make up and i think i am this close to forgetting how to put falsies on oh my mother of god .

Was suppose to head up with XX to hk on the 21st but changed mind and heading up shenzhen to meet the bf instead.

Few places to go. cheung chau and macau if bf has time . If not id just shop in SZ but noooo to fake goods.

Its awhile more to go but i want to have a white christmas =D *hints the bf*

Its been awhile too since we had seafood at JB . It used to be a ritual where we have it almost every week. CRAP periods coming and i am stuffing my face with food.

i am hiding the weighing scale under the grandfather clock for now before i freak out and die on the spot !!

TIME to be a couch potato BYE

so yes i've officially moved out of loyang =)=(

i have my own room!! new bed new cupboard.

My bed is so comfortable that when i lie on it regardless on whether or not i am tired, id fall asleep.

Yesterday bf make me so happy .

he said: " I think what you said is TRUE" yadayada

I almost choked on maggi mee !?!?!??!?!

OMFG TEARS OF JOY


Conversation with david and stella

-E d e l y n- IM RIGHT =) says:
lala gal's baby full mth is from 4.30 to 7
David - take my picture off the backdrop says:
wtf stella got baby?
-E d e l y n- IM RIGHT =) says:
no
-E d e l y n- IM RIGHT =) says:
AHAHHAHAHA
-E d e l y n- IM RIGHT =) says:
STELLA GOT A BABY
-E d e l y n- IM RIGHT =) says:
please..
-E d e l y n- IM RIGHT =) says:
this friend of ours called GAL
-E d e l y n- IM RIGHT =) says:
aka the smaller sabrina
S T E L L A says:
hahah.....
David - take my picture off the backdrop says:
oh ok
S T E L L A says:
y would i have a baby
S T E L L A says:
brother!
David - take my picture off the backdrop says:
how i know i thought u kena some 4d
David - take my picture off the backdrop says:
dio shotgun


LMAO!

Tagged in FB but since i have been nagged to blog i decided to do this here !

Boyfriend survey

How long have you been together?

6 months 1 day =)

How long did you know each other before you started dating?

23rd dec 08 till 2nd Jan 09 you do the math

How did you know each other ?

Long story short . Knew through stamford, drove my car for 5 mins and crashed it. Pawned Bmw for me to drive.

Who asked whom out?

It was a ritual thing i met them every day since the crash and i can't remember who asked who first

How old are each of you?

He's 24 and im 21

Whose siblings do both of you see the most?

That would be his Twin brother

Which situation is the hardest on you as a couple?

Time. He works around the clock on the go. Oh yes and hes super logical and me emotional Communication goes haywire when arguing

Did you go to the same school?

No possible -_-"

Are you from the same home town?

HAHA no. Try east coast and pasir ris

Who is smarter?

Him definitely. Im pretty bimbotic.

Who is the most sensitive?

Duh ain't it obvious

Where do you eat out most as a couple?

Woah, everywhere whatever we feel like eating. But cai fan makes us happier =D

Where is the furthest you two have traveled together as a couple?
UH Hongkong ahahah

Who has the craziest exes?

I WOULD SO LOVE TO SAY HIM!

Who has the worst temper?

I get upset easily and throws my princess temper around but when he gets angry OHHHH does he get angry. Thinking about it makes me wanna hide in my cupboard and not come out.

Who does the cooking?

Both actually. I cook cause i like to, he cooks for me because im too lazy to get out of bed !!! IM BETTER DEFINITELY giggles

Who is the neat-freak?

Uh we're both anal about different stuff, so it would be fair to say both?

Who is more stubborn?

Equally.

Who hogs the bed?

If i sleep first that would be me , but... when he comes to bed he manages to squash me to the wall.

Who wakes up earlier?

Nothing wakes him up faster than knowing he has an appt the next morning.!.! HE doesn't even wake up that fast when he has to go out with me HRMPH .

Where was your first date?

We were chatting and i casually mentioned i've never been to KL and genting in my life and he said : Come ah go home pack now tml we go. so yes KL and GENTING

Who is more jealous?

None actually.

How long did it take to get serious?

Idk man. I guess he took it seriously from the start for me it took a little more time

Who eats more?

Please do not judge my bf by his size =( cause i eat more and when i do he has to eat too . teehee

Who does the laundry?

Our MOTHERS

Who’s better with the computer?

AMAZINGLY me.. and to alot of ppl i was the IT IDIOT . Unless of cause u're talking about Microsoft , then him

Who drives when you are together?

He drives more but i drive too but i think bf gets scared when i do =( he thinks im too reckless and fast. WELL HE SHOULD KNOW. we raced on the road before

The Day my cousin broke my heart

Downside of dating a business man . . .

waiting for him to finish his appt which will be around idk 1 or 2?? His appt use to be 2 hours and now it takes almost 4 an appt. no diff from 8 -5 .

Moving house but Im never around. always stuck in between time, sleep . On my left, so fucking organised everything need a timing or a slot. On my right, as and when everyone is home or around we leave on the stop timing? no such shit.

STUCK IN BETWEEN NO ONE GIVING IN TO ME HOW U TELL ME HOW!

Handicapped

This kind of disappointment is inevitable yet no choice but to accept and understand.

Loving someone is already not an easy thing, Loving someone whose life revolve around business is even harder. You need extra of everything. Energy, Understanding, Patience, Logic etc etc.
oh ya and extra instant noodle -_-" K i am gonna cook myself a packet of noodle now. no time for hk cafe =(.


Idk if he can feel the disappointment in my voice. crap

3 months. . . . . . no strengthhhhh urg. spinachhhh ^-^

omfg im sooo growing sideways. I just had 2 .. 2 PACKET OF INSTANT NOODLES!?!?!?! OMFG JUST KILL ME.

I have nothing to blog about.

Key

15th june. we got the keys to my new house.
Daddy's first time there.
Our first time shifting house.
I feel happy yet like shit at the same time.
I want to hug my house and not let it go. 21 years.
But as long as i have my whole family with me.

The rest won't matter.


Got home and downloaded tons of songs before sleeping. Haven slept the whole night.

The dogs were accompanying me through the night. No actually they got locked out

Sb and Nine



Nine likes to sleep near the aircon/ fan while Small boy prefers to suntan -_-"



Sb on the leg rest. His hind legs slipped a few times. Hilarious i don't know how to upload the video . My brother calls him Shadow. Hes a confused dog.



Babies

If you know me you'd know i pretty much hate babies. I find some of them hideous no offence.
When people share their baby album with me of them or their kids, gushing how cute they look. I find myself trying to hide the fact i think they look hideous. -_-" I thought i was an ugly baby too. fuck i look like a butch . But. so far only 3THREE babies make me gush.

Giselle Lavie. No she's not a malay or indian. She african french i think? She has the best mum in the world. This is one fashionable baby. Always decked in baby dior and burberry. Her mum refuses to let her wear anything hideous or those common baby clothes.








And the boyfriend

THE PAMPER'S BABY. He's super proud of this picture. he has a big copy of it sitting under the glass of his working table *grumbles grumbles* SO FAT. same as now luh!



I need to continue sleeping Buay TEH HAN

I had nightmares 2 consecutive nights. =( now i don't dare to sleep at all. so i am awake at this time. catching up on my TVB series now . i am sad

Home

Got home this morning around 4.30am after sending boyfriend and his brother to the airport.
They're in Shenzhen right now meeting with the officials and leaders. Before heading to Kunming for the next 3 days.

Usually by now, boyfriend would have already picked me up if he dropped me home earlier , and we'd be having supper right now.

i just msged him and ask: are you sure it hasn't been 5 days yet? This is what happens when a couple spends 24/7 with each other. Okay some get sick of each other and things turn bad or not. , well we do sometimes too but give us 4 hours and we would probably miss each other already. sick i know.



COURTS

Headed down to courts with mummy just now. Got me a new bed. Love mummy and boyfriend


SELF DECLARED OFF DAY

So yes for the next 5 days or so i will be recuperating , have some me time, probably meet up with some old friends or spend the day at home or i could stick with my parents till i irritate the hell outta them.

Boyfriends phone takes awesome but grainy pics fuck that.



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SHOPPING

Days ago boyfriend and i went shopping. I bought nothing and he bought 2 Armani exchange tees.

Headed over to Bvlgari

He set his eyes on the the 4 - 5 hoops BZERO Ring
The picture below is a 3 hoop



Ever Since Boyfriend dated me . He went from No sense to Some sense. Fashion wise.
He knows it himself that packaging is very important in his line. If not he wouldnt be paying so much for his BMW every month.
I told him that to a certain degree that Brand matters too. Not only the design and comfort. It doesn't matter whether its the shoes or pants . Didnt get it at first Until i use the CAR TERM. Vious and BM both cars. Why BM is more ex ? Besides the after service there is also the comfort, the prestige, the confidence it gives And etc etc.

But being brand conscious doesn't make us materealistic. If we earn and have the Spare cash and i mean spare why not pamper yourself once in awhile. No one says that you need to have a collection or anything right. . .

But please do not be mistaken and take your parents money and buy them. nothing proud of it. your parents is rich yes not you. I learnt it the hard way.

New cupboard.

Made it up with scrumptious dinner from sin hoi san woohoo. just thinking about the chilli prawn and man tou makes me drool. umm. jb's seafood was way better thou. 

Instead of taking down that post i would rather write one more to remind myself *fuck your thoughts when you're happy*

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WHY SO SAD!?!??!?!

Had A Slight Argument with Boyfriend yesterday. And we have no fate with Wolverine

So i woke up with boyfriend telling me i cooked you porridge with egg
first thing that went thru my mind was porridge with an egg inside which i hate, which he cooked last night
so i said nah no thanks i don't like porridge with egg
boyfriend must have felt heartbroken when i said that together with no i am not hungry

But after he left i woke up brushed my teeth and took a peep at the porridge to realize this is what he mean



Felt my heart melting msged the boyfriend to say thank you with love.

gobbled it up after. yumm abalone porridge ..

I found this picture funny



My brother shaved nine bald. and left his tail like that i swear he looks like a poodle. when i laugh nine will sulk.

k im done talking

quote jennifer aniston on rumor has it.
reality isn't anything like that. the guy wouldnt give you a second chance after you cheat on him -_-" .

I didn't come here to tell you i can't live without you, i can. i came here to tell you i don't want to live without you.

I have patent fucking hot pink nails
I packed baby's room and my god is it dusty. . .
I am waiting for you to bring me out for DINNER!

I need cinnamoroll

i am still not well.

for the past 2-3 weeks i have seen a whopping total of 4 doctors including one at A&E . just imagine the fucking bill

Stage 1 - mild food poisoning with migraine
description- imagine... vomitting + splitting headache + sleepiness

Stage 2- evolved Food poisoning with diarrheoa
description- all of the above and diarrheoa.

Stage 3- Viral infection/ cold
description - discomfort from head to toe but can't describe precisely where, nausea, bloated, fever, giddy, constipation

Stage 4- cough/swollen throat/ running nose/ eye infection
description- cough so much i swear im this close to coughing blood then white foam/ itching throat this close to putting my hand down and scratch/ pus from eye which my bf very smartly concluded that its conjunctivitis.

To top it all off. i was in Kl and Malacca for the past 5 days and i wasnt able to enjoy the trip and i was this close to running back home only to realize i wasnt in fucking sentosa.

This is probably one of my worst times now. i can't even give a shit about my appearance.

But would love to thank the boyfriend for his endless understanding and support through my *difficult time* when i look at him sleep so soundly now (usually i would just disturb and wake him up when im up) i wonder how he tahan such a troublesome , lazy and not to mention grumpy girlfriend .

I have a list of things to do

1) Get my eye brows down
2) Get brazillian done
3) pack the room
4) finish up my dvds
5) *will fill in when i can remember*

No pictures boyfriends internet that a million years to load

Back dated

Shopping!

As those who know me. Im either a havaianas or birkin girl heels too la when im out for appointments with jie.

And then i realise SHIT go out shopping with him look so weird with slippers -_-" soooo I got a slip on with big dazzles on it from "Pedder Red"




B.E.A utiful.... No pictures yes too lazy to go down open the door just to take a picture.

Boyfriend got himself a Jean Paul Gaultier Sunglasses! F.I.N.A.L.L.Y

So yes i am down with food poisoning and migraine . . .

took a blood test and a jab for stopping the nausea feeling



the bruise isnt really obvious on the picture but i can see blue & black forming up omfgwtfbbq -_-"

if u see it from the side view it kinda looks like my vein got knocked up and is about 5 mths -_-"

I am still craving for food even thou i feel like shit which isnt what the doctor said it would be HA so much for " she won't feel like eating much la" -______________-"

One leaves a relationship for many reasons. One reason being tired of arguments, resentments, resisting . Only after leaving a relationship only after all the bad things fade away when things start to mellow. Do we realize the things we lost didn't even lose its way. We'd always remember their favourite color, favourite food, the next sentence, the way we smile, laugh , pout, the way we whine, what food we'd order, what clothes we like, what irks us what makes us happy.

Yes along the way we will change . change our styles change our favourite color, change our favourite food. but no matter what styles we change there is still a certain cutting we will always pick, a certain type of habit in food we won't change, a certain thing in our room still of the usual favourite colors.

we may lose the love we've had but we'll never lose the way we will still care we'll never lose the memories and certain level of understanding .

do you ever feel like when you compliment someone they suddenly become someone else -_-" is this why the superstition of never tell a baby they are so cute instead tell them they are damn ugly so when they grow up they'd be damn pretty/ handsome?

I Notice whenever i appreciate and say it out loud it goes missing. be it friendship family or even relationship. fuck this shit.

No more saying good stuffs i have the worst family worst boyfriend worst friends in the world and i will keep saying it so when they are super nice i will be secretly grateful in my heart (not out loud)

Hi someone stab me to death right now.

Something is wrong with my calls. Sometimes i cannot see who and i have been receiving complains that i don't pick up my calls when i didn't even see a miss call!?!?!

Woke up at like 10 am! couldn't sleep ended up doing Boyfriend's income tax and some other miscellaneous stuffs.

So yesterday Boyfriend had the *mount the tv pack the room* mood.

The bed previously was against the wall facing the TV now after shifting it we have a god damn big space to walk around! heck we can probably play catching!?!




Yes i know the make up table is still damn messy! but that isnt the point you see the light on the shelf at the corner. Boyfriend mounted it for me! so much love.

After he mounted it was telling him about this article i read before in one of the magazines. about this guy who lost the girl he loved yada yada but basically all she wanted was a space in his room just for her. all he had to do was give up that one little corner but yeah he didn't as you can see! So yes All i wanted was a table with the lights i want ! felt like the happiest girl on earth that moment.

5th - 6th april we were in KL and majorly unhappy with each other already this close to killing one another

7th - 9th april Off he went to HK again for business which means its "cool down relax stay home enjoy my dad's cooking" time.


Boyfriend's early birthday present that silly boy is so easily satisfied.



Bought that when he was in Hk i had to keep that surprise for 3 days *OH KILL ME*


Boyfriend got me a little something from HK! totally unexpected.



Never really liked using a wallet most of my wallets have a shelf life of 2 weeks ? 1 month max? except the guess one david bought which i used till it tore at the bottom! =( okay back to the subject. Idk why it has never been on my want to get list?

and YES it is of the same color , design and material as the BAG!?!?! totally appreciated it. after which the next day i told him no more same style color again must try to get something totally new =D




which comes to my next topic. Im not un appreciative i just don't really know how to show it like they do in movies and tivos. No jumpy No tears No dramatic OMFG OMFG shit. I'd probably just make up for it after by doing something nice back. well idk if they other party can feel/sense it thou?

Amidst all the arguments, logics, feelings, hurtful words, sarcasm thrown here and there we humans sometimes get too blinded to see. We still seek perfection in something that was almost flawless to begin with. perhaps if we stop trying to be perfect or expect perfection we would be able to enjoy the little things more , like cooking together , sleeping beside one another, watching a show in bed together, doing work together. Sometimes just being around or waking up to the one you love is more than enough no?

So yes today i am the happiest girl on earth. I am at the safest place on earth god has a thing about taking the best things away from u sooo opps i didnt say that =X ahahah